Ella on the  emotional impact of amputation

Ella on the emotional impact of amputation

January 16, 2020 1 By Jose Scott

I have to say that at the
beginning I obviously was devastated. You know sitting here now it’s very easy
for me to smile and to say that everything’s fine, but yeah that were
were some really dark times as well obviously, you know, being told
aged 25 that you’re going to lose your leg, it’s probably one of the most
devastating things you can hear. And yeah it’s a form of grief,
it’s similar to bereavement for a person because I was grieving the loss of my
leg for a really long time. That started off after the operation of
course. I was in a lot of pain and things like that. But then it kind of carried on
through stages. So there’s the initial devastation and then you start thinking,
there were times when you sort of think why me? Why did it happen to me? you
know you kind of replay it. I had a lot of post-traumatic stress type things
where every night before I went to sleep it was like I had to watch a video of
the accident happening over and over again. Which I’m told is totally normal
for trauma victims, but I’m pleased to say that that seems to have stopped now.
Definitely less than it was. So I think, you know, there are ups and downs,
there are still peaks and troughs now. With for amputees if you get a blister
for example, then you can’t wear your leg and then you’re back in the
wheelchair. So it kind of feels like back to square one. So there’s always going to
be ups and downs throughout my life. I think you just sort of develop thicker
skin as time goes on, and you you learn to deal with it really!